Letting Go... why am I 'White Knuckling' this???

They say that laughter is good for the soul… believe me… I totally agree with that… however, putting my thoughts on paper is equally healing…

So… with that being said, here I go…

Family…………………… Oh, Family! This last month or so has been very trying for me as well as a learning experience, hence, my blogging being a little more closer to home.  I have been trying my hardest to make changes in others lives… it does not work… it only frustrates me more and leaves me drained…  I heard today that, ‘Getting entangled in others ‘stuff’ steals your (my) joy!’ Oh, how true this is… I am learning this the ‘hardest’ way possible.  I must remember this on a moment by moment basis…  things are not fixed as of yet, however, I am feeling better today as I am making a covenant with God to not get entangled anymore and to mind my words and pray them into submission :)   I shall see how this goes…

Pray for me when you talk to God – I know that prayer moves mountains and that it never really is as bad as we make it seem…

your constant companion,

~dee

Insist, Insist, Insist... Guess What? It continues to Persist...

feeling blue... I did it again! I let my passion take over - it appears not in the good way... I hate to speak in code, however, I really do not want to go into too much detail... let me just say that I tried over and over to get my point across and show why I felt I was right and it lead me to misery... :(  feeling sad...

I decided that I must agree to disagree and Let Go! Oh, it is so hard for me to do! I am a control freak and it is not easy to let things just be.  However, so goes the saying, ‘You can only lead a horse to water - you cannot make them drink’  ~~~  So, I must - I really have zero choice...

Praying to God that he gets me through this...

sadly yours,

~dee

Feelings... they are so fickle... B-)

Guess what?!

I am feeling so much better! It is amazing how God’s peace ushers in when I surrender… J

I am determined to cast down negative thoughts… because, you know, they lead to negative feelings… out with those!

Have a great day, my dear friends!

I am here if you need to vent or get some thing/s off your chest…

However, might I suggest that you take it heavenward first as this always leaves me a peace B-)

your constant companion,

~dee

Running on Empty...

I have been feeling stressed lately… this is not a normal everyday feeling for me…  as I think about it – I have to believe it is because I am running on empty.  It is kind of like when you do not fill up your car and you drive around town constantly worried that the car will stop… this is my non stop brain… When I stop to look at all the things I am doing at once – I begin to feel overwhelmed… I keep reminding myself that soon I will have a little more me time, however, that ‘me’ time cannot get here soon enough.  I just might lose it :/  In the not so distant past, ‘me’ time used to be going to the gym – outdoor activities, bible studies, girlie time, etc… I have not done any of it at all lately… hence, the burn out feeling.

I have been feeling this way and I am feeling this way still this morning… I have been really attempting to get out of this funk – I forget for a minute what is troubling me and then it quickly returns making me feel like caca… ugh!

I know that the only way I can get out of this is with God’s help… ‘I’ have tried… and Nothing! So… I am going to go to my private place a.k.a. office restroom – to pray… I shall return and I know that I know that I will feel better… J

Btw, how do you de stress?

your constant companion,

~dee

Happy New Year, my dears!!!

I wanted to start my 2011 blogging with a bunch of wonderful wishes for all of you!

I wish you joy, peace and love that only comes from up above!

I pray that you may have abundance with hard work, of course! J

Let me share some of my desires for the New Year…

-      To have a more committed relationship with my Lord

-      To be a better listener to my teenager (oh, the teenage years)

-      To be a better woman, lover, spouse, and partner to my wonderful other half J

-      To become a smaller, healthier version of myself

-      To slow down… and realize that it is the ‘quality’ not the amount of time that is most important…

-      To continue blogging and amusing all of you! J

I am sure that there are some that I may be missing some, however, it is a list that I will add to throughout the year, I am sure…

May you experience a blessed New Year and may you also thrive in and complete the desires of your heart…

yours,

~dee