Crazy in Love...

First off, I would like to thank you for taking the time to park on my page for a little while & entertain my daily craziness ;)

First and foremost, I am a woman, a mother, a friend, a confidant, and a softy... However, my true goal is to be an ambassador to all - to be an ear or two to my friends, acquaintances or passerbys... I wish to leave your life a little better than what it might have been... I hope that I will have made a difference - in a positive way... I am truly gratified by being able to be there for someone in their time of need or joy and in turn learn from others! :)))

You will find that I am a Realtor by trade, however, with a philanthropist mentality...

However, here we will talk about everything under the sun... Follow me as I also chronicle my 'Get Healthy' Journey as Georges and I 'shake it off and firm it up' :) ~ It is Insanity, Baby!

From the "City that Never Sleeps" (New York) yes, thats where I hail from... to another Great City.. Las Vegas - which I now call home. I'm a proud mom of a beautiful 13 year old boy (my inspiration & my reason) and in love with my best friend!

I'm very open & positive and wish to meet people who exude the same kind of Zest for Life!!

your constant companion,

~deirdra

18 November 2008

What a blow to my heart...

- tonight, something disturbing happened... i became totally aware that people don't really care when they have hurt someone... i have learned that most people are selfish, self centered, self absorbed and just plain mean sometimes... :'( now, i know you're probably thinking, "no, this is not true, Deirdra"... however, i'm not buying it... i have bought it for way too long now... i have justified and justified and convinced myself otherwise, however, to no avail... i lost !!!

- tonight, my heart has been broken... u know, for a long time - i built a wall around me - i felt protected... like nothing could penetrate it - like i would be safe... and then i met someone and i decided to open up - to take a chance on this wonderful emotion - called, "love" ---- it felt great... i thought, "wow, this is so wonderful, i was missing out"........... but i quickly learned that the heart is the biggest deceiver... i was so blinded... i wanted to believe so bad - so bad i could taste it... you know what i mean? some of my friends would say that i am ruled by my heart - but, i always thought - isn't that what people really want... deep down inside... don't they want someone to love them & accept them for who they are,,, who wants to be be with someone who is always negative or complaining or crabby all of the time... or even judgmental? Right? i thought that if i let my "wall" down & it came crashing down on me tonite - i thought that if i did that - that i would find what my heart was searching for...

- i'm totally vulnerable right now... a place i'm not too comfortable with... but, hey maybe there is someone out there that needs to read this and know that they are not alone... and you know what, amidst this merciless pain i'm feeling - i still believe deep down that "love, is where it's at" does that make me stupid, or silly? i don't know - what i do know is that it's what My Lord promises for me... i can't see it right now - however, i have to hold onto that faith - that i will encounter that "one" for me...

- geez, my heart is split in two ... and i can no longer wear this mask anymore... i have to let it be known...

your constant companion,

~deirdra
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